Today my kid sister turns 21, there's no one more happier than me(that's what i like to believe). She's always the cutest and the most playful toy i could have asked for. We have had some wonderful times laughing, arguing, fighting and saying sorry. We have stood as witness to each other's life along all roads. Today i want to dedicate this beautiful poem to her, just to let her know how much i love her.. 

Sanjay Leela Bhansali does it again !!

Guzaarish , a story that tugs at your heart couldn't be told better than this. Ethan Mascarenhas who has spent the last 14 years with  Quadriplegia , decides it's time to die with dignity and appeals for Euthanasia (mercy killing). A man who has lived his glory days as a Merlin Magician( a honorary ) and now a radio jockey at "hello zindagi".

His small world includes Sofia D'souza (his nurse, played by Aishwarya Rai Bachan), Devyani Dutta ( his lawyer friend) ,Dr. Nayak (his doc) , Isabel Mascarenhas (his mom), Rosy and Maria (the caretakers of the house) .His only contact with the outside world is through his radio show where he plays soulful songs and talks to his listener's and  then there's Omar Siddique (who's an aspiring magician, in his own words he's the greatest fan of Ethan)

As ironic as it may sound, a man who tells other's to embrace life wants death. The story never deviates.The lavish melodramatic approach of Mr.Bhansali only adds to the story telling.Every frame looks more like a painting ( you will definitely get to see more blue lighting in this movie too but it's sublime). The music is good (again by Mr.Bhansali himself ) and the locals of goa and the musty walls of the villa are well captured.

The few things that didn't appeal to me were the not so realistic court scenes and the climax of the movie. The best part of the movie is the right blend of the strong will of Ethan and his helplessness..

There comes a time in a young girls life,
When she begins to start growing up.
It's a time when you need to let her go,
And trust that she'll take the right path.
Now is when she needs you most.
She needs your trust,
And she needs your love.
The closer you try to pull her in, 
The further away she'll go.
She's growing up..
So let her go.








Life is sweet, colorful, challenging, a channel for discovery and innovation, it's a gateway to where one wishes to be. Being young only adds to the enthusiasm. The support one gets could make a difference in what they conceive  life to be. A strong support is one which is very flexible - as the support is always there but never stiff on your back. 




As colorful the life can get, the right balance is very important to keep it beautiful !!

Links to songs to cheer myself up !! Yeh i needed some cheering as i was feeling quite low and what better than music to fuel this soul back to action. I have quite a mix of taste for music, hope you like them too .. (click on the song to see them on youtube)

This is my first post where i'm not gonna use any kind of generalization, it's purely a personal experience and i like to leave the rest of the world out of this. Today is supposedly deepavali, a day filled with happiness and craziness . I expected to have spent it with my family but turns out except for me no one else is excited.

To begin with - the clothes i had shopped for everyone weren't liked much. (good each has their own taste when it comes to dressing probably i tried to get them into something they weren't comfortable). Then comes the cleaning and decoration - I'm the only one doing it, like i live alone in this duplex house. The kitchen is a mess, the rooms are at their worst despite having them cleaned yesterday.The chocolates i made for gifting purposes are only half wrapped, why ? cos i have only wrapped the one's i will be handing over.not the one's my sis will handing off.I forgot to take the divas out from where they are stacked all year through and they aren't out yet, forget about washing and cleaning them to be used in the evening. The puja room is not cleaned, the god's haven't taken a bath.There is a war going on to decide what needs to be cooked for lunch (sure there's not gonna be a sweet cooked), not to forget the breakfast was bought from the nearest restaurant!! I have more on my list of NOT COMPLETED PROJECTS but i guess i'll leave them. ( they aren't that important).

Now i'm confused am i doing right by pulling myself out of the situation but then i have no kids at home (everyone is older than me, the only one younger to me is my sis, who's soon to be 21) they gotta act like adults, just because i shoulder the responsibility doesn't mean it becomes my duty !! I feel like - everyone's gotta a life except for me henceforth like a looser i do all the house chores like a maid. (a maid who doesn't get paid). A little help is all i ask, is that too much to ask? I don't stay at home all day, i got my own responsibilities away from home too. I don't wanna be tied down at home with all the chores. I wanna live like everyone else. If only i knew whom i could blame all this on, i would feel a lot better - is it my mom's deteriorating health ? my dad's being away all the time ? my granny who feels it's her time to rest and relax now? or my sis who lives in a world of her own and have no time to spare ?  Am i the only looser who's got the time, strength and willingness to be the LOOSER i am !!  

Be it right or be it wrong , I've made this decision no more chores for me. No more I'm gonna spend my time for someone else, my time is for me and for the benefit of me only.

Deepavali being just 2 days away, sure all of you have finalized on your gifts, sweets, decoration, lights(diyas).
My preparations are speeding up, this is a very special deepavali mostly because i'll be spending it with my family and more so ever as i'll be with family after about 2 months.

Deepavali to me is simply "An Array of Lamps".

Let me give you guys 6 Reasons as to why we celebrate Deepavali -

1.According to Ramyana, this very day Rama returned to Ayodhya along with Sita , Lakshman and Hanuman after the victory over Ravana and lights were lit to welcome them.

2.It is also believed that during the SamudraMathanam, goddess Lakshmi emerged out of the ocean on this very day (hence probably lakshmi pooja is performed by most buisness class).

3.In the Bhagavad, it is mentioned that Lord Krishna killed a demon named Narakasura, on account of which NarakaChaturdashi is observed.

4.BaliChakravarthi is believed to visit his subjects on this auspicious day after being pushed to the PatalaLoka by Vamana. Lights are lit to welcome him.

5. Mahabharatha denotes this day to the return of Pandavas from their Agnathavasa (12 years of banishment). It is believed, Pandavas celebrated this day by lighting a lamp.

6. This very day King vikramadithya (of the vikram Bethal fame ) was crowned / coroneted.


This Deepavali let's light lamps pledging to spread the light of knowledge and to move away from the darkness called ignorance.

P.S. - In case you know any other story, please feel free to share it with me and everyone else.

It's been a week since i got home a microwave oven. I have purchased an LG convection microwave (30 l). So i get to cook, grill and bake with it. With a new equipment at home, i'm all excited to cook more than ever. I'm putting up a few pics of my microwave oven and my endeavor with it. You can find the recipes i try out with my lovable oven at MY BLOG as and when i put them up.

...Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or Bends with the remover to remove.
O, no! It is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken.
It is the star to every wandering bark,
whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.